Yesterday was a rather lonely day to begin with. Sms many ppl to go out. But everyone is either with their bf or gf. I hate weekends. Couples everywhere on the street no matter where u go. wtf...
went bugis. had xiao long bao at foodcourt. went teenage cafe for coffee. den went apple strudel for peach tea. they played rain's music again. ok, not too bad of so called "kick ass" music. ate pasta bolognese at pastamania, boat quay. had red wine at chocolate factory by the river. great view, great breeze, great memories.. nostalgic..
went drinking at all sort of places thereafter u can imagine.
ryan jio me go dbl O. fuck, din wana go coz i already planned to spend whole nite at wild, but fuck again, realised she's not working there tonite! guessed she was at lookers. sms her, and yups. she was.
ok, ended up in dbl O finally.
long time no chiong. not too bad really. had fun. but the crowd was disgustingly massive.
i hoped to see her, so sms her to meet after her work. no reply. nvm, she called at about 3. over the moon. but she was pissed off. at what? she said i make her worry. but am i? i'm honestly just chionging with my frens on a saturday nite leh. im not like drinking to my sorrows or what lo.. haiz, she mistook me..
i admit i miss her and love her still, but i go chiong and drink is just coz its a saturday chill out nite, not coz im upset over our breakup.. *swear*....
on the way home and jeslin was no where in sight.. dunno where the fuck she went, prob with ryan.. messy.. decided not to bother.. took nightrider home.. reached yishun den took cab.. fuck! car crash! ccb! i injured my leg.. went hospital.. doc says i need to stay on for hospitalisation.. fuck.. i insisted on out-patient status.. argued till 9plus before they agreed to let me home.. knn, waste money on medical fees..
reached home at 11.. now wobbling slightly coz of the freaking accident.. knn.. and i cant sleep..
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she told me the nite before she will call me when she woke. i waited the whole damn day at bugis for her call. finally she did after i sms her at nite to find out where she would be.. lol.. guess im not really too important in her life anymore..
why am i so gaga over her? im honestly not like tat when it comes to girls. i swear i can get over girls fast. but not her.. nope, i dun think i will for a long time..
"memories will stay though the physical presence is gone..
once u've love u'll always love..
the love remains with the heart in place.."
-Nick-
ps: my dear girl, i hope u'll be reading this.. come on la.. i dunno why u reacted like tat last nite.. i wasn't drunk, but i was high.. coz chionging is all abt getting high and enjoying the music ma! i never did lie to u.. i do treasure u and hell i miss u yes.. but im not gonna be crazy as to lose myself to sorrows.. i'll only love and cherish myself even more.. like i do cherish u in my life as a friend.. if only u understand.. by the way, my smses to u last nite was heartfelt and true to my heart.. if only u would.. i will stand by my words..