They say things happen overnight. i couldn't agree more. the 20min we spent together in the cab just 2 days ago was the most amazing and sweetest moment we had together since we first got together. i wished to think of that moment as the moment where we showed each other our most true feelings..
Things seem to get back on track. But just one incident happened tat night, added a whole mountain of misery to my already cursed life. my over reaction was some part intrigued by a stab to my pride, as a boyfriend and as a man. but i guessed as what was said to me, it seemed as though it was only a one-sided affair all this while? i was stunned. i was devastated. i was hurt, deeply.
i wished i can turn back the hands of time, not to where we first started out. but to the the point in time where she has yet to feel any hurt caused by anyone. i see her dwelling in the past, even though she shows a strong front.
why dun u truly let go of the past? why dun u let me be your shelter where u can hide? why dun u run into my arms each time u are sad? why dun u want to hold my hands and laugh with me when u are happy? why do u still want to put up a strong front? why do u not want to have trust and faith and love in me? why do u not want to commit to me? why are u so scared to be with me? why are u so attractive? why am i so into u? why is it i cried over us when i no longer did so for any other girl anymore? why am i so silly? why am i asking so many why? why ar?
ok, asking why is stupid.. its irritating the shit out of me.. i feel so much better already.. just like letting all shit out.. (what a pun..) =)
*eating nuggets in bed, drinking iced milo, smoking viceroy menthol lights.. feeling ever so contented and blissful.. it'll feel better and more complete if we are doing these little things together side by side..*
-Nick-