a slow jog to the seaside has always been the best thing whenever i feel moody.. going to the beach, feeling the breeze, embracing the warmth of the setting sun, listening to the sound of the gentle waves splashing against the edges of the jetty and of course the scenic view of the sunset.. endearing..
i guess i was just being over zealous about the whole damn thing.. shouldn't be too rushed into things.. there i am again, getting my heart into my brain, getting my thoughts proper estrangled with my fogged up feelings..
a true blue cancerian some called me.. i guessed the truth speaks for itself, in a way.. i've come to a conclusion.. that i must be myself.. the true person i am.. positive, brimming with energy and hope, forever laughing, fearing nothing, loving myself, loving my family, loving my friends, and most importantly, loving her..
i wrote in an sms last nite.. that loving another needs no reason, loving another is untimely, loving another is ultimate selflessness, loving another is sacrifice, loving another is being myself, allowing her to be herself, allowing us to be our true selves when we are together, loving another is to make sure she is happy, loving another is to be by her side when she is not, and loving her (which i learnt from her) is about loving myself.. because, loving myself, will make her happy, is the best way to love her..
my dearest, u know who u are.. i've thought it through.. i've a clear picture of where i am heading in this relationship with u.. i wun bear to change u, i wun bear for u to change for me just to make me happy.. i want u to enjoy life.. have a great and beautiful life..
u are so right that we are not living in our own 2-person world, that things are never as easy as it seems.. this sentence has knocked great sense into me.. i believe that love is actually real simple, just that all this while people have been making it real complicated.. i want to make our love real simple.. and ever so heartening..
this relatively few days with u makes me feel so enclosed in a totally different way.. i guess its coz its been so some time i'm in love with another.. and it happened like.. like.. a tsunami (u said it)? but i realised that with u around me, im learning loads from u.. and so ever enjoying every min of it..
i was a dickhead.. i became a jealous idiot.. no more such nonsense.. i respect u, i trust u, and i love u.. i truly and sincerely hoped we can go a much longer way, and cross any obstacles that come in our way.. i want to be yr guy, yr best fren, yr soulmate.. i want u to feel comfortable around me.. baby im sorry, forgive this idiot.. i love u andrea deary..
别人能说我傻，但我只是直拙。。。
我宁可爱错，也不肯错过。。。
爱真的很简单，就让我们简单地爱一场。。。
宝贝，我爱你，真的。。。