For my family and good buddies.. A mere parchment of the indebtedness i owe u out there..
There is a fog or maybe just a bog,
Inexplicably I fade to mist, as much as i pray for bliss.
Vanish and vanquished,
Gone is the flame and fiery fiest within.
Is it the day i yearn? Could it be the night i earned?
I m but a little child, wishing to be in Wonderland.
But be darkly dressed and pathed,
Slumbering thoughts and a cumbering fall i took.
I evade your invading eyes and piercing words,
Matching them with easy defining turds.
Thought as i would, miracle to exist as hope should,
Darkness schemes and overwhelming it could.
A falling leaf and a shimmering clive,
My eye's distracted, as i merge with restless intricaments.
Begone i say! Away i protested!
Evil lurks and never leaves.
I know what emptiness is,
A space so hollow, its own walls swallowed.
A place so intense, a place so consuming,
I... really know emptiness...
Each hour more bottomless than the last,
Your heart cries out, howls of forfeiture.
But it will be nothing,
Only ashen silence and shuddering deafness.
My wail echoes to the ends of time,
Hoping to fill the gaping void with endless howls of desolation.
But the well of my soul, helpless and hapless,
Even the proud and mighty Siberian wolves hang their heads in sickly pitiance.
Then, only then Might you detect my footprints, indistinct perhaps,
BUt trying to make their way to the track of new beginnings.
Mark the completion of morning dew,
The day my repentance sounds resonant.
I Jerk from my sleep sometimes,
Hoping to find someone warm beside my pillow.
The day never really did come,
Only days with cold perspirations and dawns of lonely puffs of immolation.
I wish to find a moment in time,
To find that close i were to the brink of the abyss,
To know what is really missing,
And what life is.
I m sorry my dear friends.
To Deaf ears i fell,
Into the dark pit of endless falling.
Till the end is near, may i only find truth and sense.
~Nick~
In yr debt forever.. In Trust and eternal gratitude..
